my blog is so dead and have not have the time to look at it...anyway right now having a week break so yea not at home and currently in florida...drove 20 hours straight from home...that is seriously not fun and don try that. so thats why i cant online...
but yea this post titled hang on cause i am hanging on till i come back. so not sure whether u still viewing my blog or not but than that is what i have decided..which also means that i will also wait.
gtg now...update soon when i am free.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Monday, January 26, 2009
Melancholy
today started of pretty well...everything went well and i was just enjoying myself because it is sunday and i do not need to wake up early and go class!
anyway it was well and i was studying and took some time and watched the rolex 24 hours daytona race. the race was intense and this race went into the history book.so that was about later part in the afternoon close to 4 something 5! so i continued study while my friend's fionce cooked for new year dinner! at 6 we had reunion dinner, is just the four of us there small but we had fun chatting and watched movie while taking dinner.
after my dinner and washing the dishes, i came into my room and called my grandma (mum's side)
so i started to talk to her and i realize this sad down voice and i was wondering why because chinese new year, so i asked her she told me that my grandma (dad's side) passed away. i was shocked! and trying to gather my thoughts there is not one to share to and din want to disturb darling because its happy celebration this part of the year for chinese! so here am i just blogging. so i quickly call mum and ask what happened.she said that grandma( dad's side) wasnt feeling well and shortly after that she just went peacefully! so i hold my emotions and kept on talking with everyone that was there! after done talking to them i called my grandma(mum's side) and talk to her again just to make sure that she is fine because i didnt want her to be upset! so yea after done talking to her i was here in the room and quietly flashing back all the memories with my grandma.
although i am not close to her but then there is a sense of close feeling i had! maybe because i am so use to the fact that i have all four of them and will see them every chinese new year! so looking at the fact that i was blessed and now facing this fact i am not use to it and here i am in US cant go back and see her for the last time! guess before i left to US was the last time i saw her for the rest of my life! and this morning i was telling april( friend's fionce) that all four my grandparents are still around! ;-( so that is a phrase that i cant use anymore!
on the phone my grandma was telling me that she will take care of herself because she wants to see me come back from state and she kept on teling me for a couple a time. that causes me to think alot of stuffs and how fragile a life could be! (tears)
everyone stressed out back at home and there is nothing i can do from here just to pray and hope that it will get better for everyone there. talking to them i can hear the edge of breaking down voice from them! but they are hanging on there so i guess that's life cycle that we have to face.
anyway it was well and i was studying and took some time and watched the rolex 24 hours daytona race. the race was intense and this race went into the history book.so that was about later part in the afternoon close to 4 something 5! so i continued study while my friend's fionce cooked for new year dinner! at 6 we had reunion dinner, is just the four of us there small but we had fun chatting and watched movie while taking dinner.
after my dinner and washing the dishes, i came into my room and called my grandma (mum's side)
so i started to talk to her and i realize this sad down voice and i was wondering why because chinese new year, so i asked her she told me that my grandma (dad's side) passed away. i was shocked! and trying to gather my thoughts there is not one to share to and din want to disturb darling because its happy celebration this part of the year for chinese! so here am i just blogging. so i quickly call mum and ask what happened.she said that grandma( dad's side) wasnt feeling well and shortly after that she just went peacefully! so i hold my emotions and kept on talking with everyone that was there! after done talking to them i called my grandma(mum's side) and talk to her again just to make sure that she is fine because i didnt want her to be upset! so yea after done talking to her i was here in the room and quietly flashing back all the memories with my grandma.
although i am not close to her but then there is a sense of close feeling i had! maybe because i am so use to the fact that i have all four of them and will see them every chinese new year! so looking at the fact that i was blessed and now facing this fact i am not use to it and here i am in US cant go back and see her for the last time! guess before i left to US was the last time i saw her for the rest of my life! and this morning i was telling april( friend's fionce) that all four my grandparents are still around! ;-( so that is a phrase that i cant use anymore!
on the phone my grandma was telling me that she will take care of herself because she wants to see me come back from state and she kept on teling me for a couple a time. that causes me to think alot of stuffs and how fragile a life could be! (tears)
everyone stressed out back at home and there is nothing i can do from here just to pray and hope that it will get better for everyone there. talking to them i can hear the edge of breaking down voice from them! but they are hanging on there so i guess that's life cycle that we have to face.
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